And I'm sorry for this...
It is 1.53 in the morning, I certainly have 3 grams of alcohol in my blood, but I need to write this article. I just realised a few things few minutes ago. I don’t know if the person to whom those words are for will read that, but whatever, I write it anyway.First, I’d like to say that anyone can't be sure about anything, even about himself.
I told you yesterday I was someone right. I am not. I hurt you tonite, and I didn’t mean it. But I did hurt you, you told me. If you hurt someone, then , you’re someone wrong, especially if this person is someone you have feelings for. I am a wrong person.
Secondly, I’d like to say that I am not able to understand everything. Should I??? Apparently, yes, I should.
Also, I was not pissed off at all.
I’d like also to tell that I’ve never, never meant to hurt you, and you know it. You are not the only one who needs help right now, and I’ve been acting as much as I could in order to be here with you, and tonite, I was the one who really needed you. Obviously, you needed me too, I didn’t see it...am I unforgivable ?
I am not mad at you though, not at all. Even if I don’t really understand your reaction, I respect it, because you know what I feel for you. Respect is an important value. Maybe this was what we needed, maybe hurting each other (yes, because by the way, I know I hurt you, but you did too) was the best thing that could happen. Now, I am going to try to move on, and you’ll finally have the time to be alone and think about your life. I still have feelings for you.
I don’t know what’s gonna happen now. I need you, you need me, we know that, the both of us. I didn’t mean neither what I told you at the very last point of the conversation. I didn’t mean also what I said about the place you’ve got in my life. I don’t want to find excuses anyway, I don’t diserve it. I don’t diserve you. (???)
That was too beautiful, three days of happiness, that was too much, I had to mess up everything, one more time.
I am a wrong guy.
written by lolo/ @ 02:16
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