"You are the bluest light..." yes I am
Life...Life...
Life...
Yesterday night, I went out to a nation party, got very wild, I really needed to get drunk. Too many things on my mind, again. Each time I feel better, new problems are coming, everytime others are getting better, I'm always the one who is down. Whatever, I should not complain, I'm not depressed (???), I'm healthy, my studies are interesting, I am a "not-so-bad-looking" guy, 22, I just quited smoking, I try to be a good friend, I have the best friends ever (???), my family give me all the support I need, anytime. But still, I miss something, again. Is it my fault??? Maybe a little bit. I should maybe repeat myself the first of all rules. "First rule: respect the rules." Order is necessary in life, and even I made very good progress in that topic, it always ends up in a huge mess. Well, I got really drunk (and I smoked one, only one).
Life...
Life...
Life...
I guess I am ready to move on... I don't know what will be the (emotional) price of such a decision, but I am ready. Fred, I wish you were here.
Sorry, I feel very blue today, that happens sometimes. Ben is coming back tonite, I'm glad, maybe I'm gonna share some of my thoughts with him...
written by lolo/ @ 16:30
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